As we go through the experience of life we encounter many things. Everything that we experience leaves an imprint on us in some way. Sometimes we try to avoid feeling the emotions that come with the experiences. We not only avoid the “negative” but sometimes we avoid feeling the “positive” emotions as well. What this does is “stuff” the emotions. Although we may continue on experiencing life feeling like these “stuffed” or ignored experiences are a thing of the past, they may haunt us later in life as an emotional or energetic block.
Blocks that aren’t released may manifest further into not only limiting beliefs about ourselves, but as chronic pain, or even disease. Some of my personal manifestations of blocks are cystic acne, migraines, emotional eating, and chronic low back pain. When these things flare up it is time for me to “take inventory” and see what it is I am avoiding.
The interesting thing is that we try so hard to avoid feeling the emotional pain that we actually cause more pain in our lives by carrying the stuffed emotions around. I used to live a life of “control.” I felt that if everything worked like clockwork then I would never feel emotional pain. I was so busy running my life that not only could I not feel, pain I could not feel joy or love, either. I was literally wrapped up in planning every minute that I was never living in the present. I began to experience major anxiety that led to panic attacks where I could not function. I continued to attempt to control and “run” my life and one day it all fell apart.
The anxiety and migraines were signs that I was not “in the flow.” My purpose in this life was not being fulfilled and I had ignored the signs for long enough that the Universe said, “Amy, you can’t ignore this any longer!” In the process I hit my bottom. I literally had everything I had worked so hard to keep together taken away in the blink of an eye. It took me quite awhile to let go.
As a “control person” it was very difficult for me to understand how you can just let go. In fact I got pissed off at people who I had hired to help me through this time in my life. They kept using words like “just” and “simply”. I could not get it. Then one day several months later I simply said, “I surrender.” Immediately I felt about 100 pounds lighter My vision became sharper, colors became brighter. I began noticing things like the birds singing, I stopped rushing and began to smile at the clerk at the grocery store. I started to hold the door open for other people and slowing down. I actually began to see people responding to what I was projecting out.
(….to be continued)