Do you struggle to believe in yourself?
Maybe it is hard for you to believe in your dreams, your abilities, your strength, your knowledge. I am going to let you in a little secret – it is a challenge for all of us to believe in ourselves.
On Easter Sunday my boyfriend and I hit the gym together. Little did I know how much of a game changer this would be in my life. A quick background before I get into the story. I started working out just over a year ago. Self-Care has always taken a back burner in my life even though I know it’s importance and I teach it to others. My boyfriend used to be a personal trainer in new York City. I was born and raised “Minnesota nice”.
Yesterday’s workout was intense. The coaching I was getting from my boyfriend was pushy but supportive at the same time. “give me two more,” “c’mon baby you got this,” “feel it working,” “don’t stop now,” etc. I would say he was politely in my face. There was a point in the workout long after I normally would have been done that I had pushed my body to the point I started to cry. When he asked me why I was crying I couldn’t verbalize it at the time. It wasn’t from pain, it wasn’t from frustration. It was from something much much deeper.
It was a release. A release of emotion from a lifetime of holding back. A lifetime of only showing up at 80% of my capacity. A lifetime of not seeing my own strengths and true abilities. A lifetime of not believing in myself. It took someone else to see that I was holding back and that I had so much more in me. More energy, more power, and more to give than I ever let myself see.
I was crying in the gym because if I could have done it on my own, without help, I would have already done it. We all need help. We all need support, and sometimes we need someone outside of ourselves to teach us to believe in ourselves.